birthday wishes. . .

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i love this bag just because of the denim. . . I love coach because of the C's. . . chanel has 'em too but this is more in my price range

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another thing I love is MAKEUP from MAC!!! color my world. . . yeah baby

ok, for now...to be continued!!

Tired, Gloomy & Flooded

today the weather was a lil crazy. the rain started early this morning, keeping me awake until 4AM. luckily, i didn't have work. i stayed in bed and just tried to go back to sleep. unsuccessful, i made a few phone calls and did a few chores around the house. i had things to do but didn't feel like doing them.

walter was at work. my little was in class. i had work to do but just didn't feel like doing it.

dad and i went to lunch. that was fun. he had fish. i had chicken. i'm not catholic or very religious at all but...i've decided to give up red meat for a while...not just because of the religious observance but also because it's just better for me that way, for now. i'm fine with it.

later, my lil and i are supposed to go watch a friend play basketball. we'll see if that happens. he's in a study group right now. i doubt we'll make it there on time, or even close to "on time". it's alright .school comes first. i hope he doesn't go back on his word to her but...school is the top priority.

the weather makes me sleepy and depressed. thoughts that i don't usually have cross my mind rapidly. i'm not really ready for all that. too much emotion and i'm screwed.

there is a guy here at the library who looks like walter's old neighbor. i would not be surprised if it were him. he is a bright kid and he is determined but why he would be going to csula and not pcc because he doesn't yet have his high school diploma, i'm not sure. he does know that he wants to go into mechanics but...iono if csula is the place to do that.

i'm rambling on and on. i'm saddened by the thoughts of how walter has been treating me lately. it drives me nuts and makes me sad. i'm ok right now but the way i feel... if he keeps on doing the dumb shit, i'll only end up being pushed away more and more and i'll eventually just leave. i do not want that but i may not have much of a choice. it stinks. i know. there isn't anything that i am going to do about it though. i don't have the strength or the energy right now. school takes up all my time.

king hall is flooded on the first floor. it smells and its slippery. i'm glad i didn't fall and hurt myself.

i'm done rambling on for now. i'm going to go out and find me some happiness. . .  who knows. maybe my happiness lies in a subway sandwich for dinner right now. we shall see.

a not so busy but hectic day

Today wasn't too bad. I had to stick around the house all day and wait for my dad's nurse to come and visit him. My mom wanted me to make sure that my dad stayed home and that he didn't leave if she didn't show up right on time. We all know (if you know my dad at all) that he'll always find an escape route if there is one to be taken. Anyways, his nurse finally came. But, by the time she was done talking to him about what he should and should not eat and not more about the things that he shouldn't eat anymore...it was about 230pm. DANG!! I know i was shocked.

Walter needed a ride to work. so, i just gave him my car  and he took me to school. it's aiight. i just hope my dad doesn't decide to randomly stop by starbucks and pay attention for once and notice my car in the parking lot but ME not there. i doubt it. that takes too much attention and energy for my dad.

Walter and I grabbed a quick lunch @ Green Papaya and saw dave. he took a quick swim in his aquarium. he loves dem fishies. Satay, crab rolls and fried rice. it was yummie. iono about dem crab rolls though. i don't eat shellfish. After that, off to class i went. EDEL 415-01 w/ Laura Straus....... KING HALL B WING

Class was boring as all hell. I was so bored. The only good thing, the teacher had us doing these gnarly activities...so we weren't just chillin' in our seats. We were doing "constructive" things. whatever!

I am on my way home now. I have work to do. I have things to xerox. Dang it. I hate that my books are so expensive this quarter. WTF!!

have a good night. I know i'mma just crash when i get home

What the hell is wrong with children today?
1) Lack of respect for teachers (subs included)
2) Poor work habits
3) Use of foul language
4) No manners
5) Inability to follow directions
6) Lack of cooperation
7) Inability to share
8) Afraid of taking responsibility for their own actions
9) Poor nutrition
10) NO ROLE MODELS

Yesterday was my last day with room 23.  I love that classroom.  There are the few "problem" students.  But for the most part, they are all sweethearts.  I haven't had such an overall great class before.  My students enjoy PE so much, but they do not get their state required 100 minutes each week.  So, instead, during recess and lunch break recess, my students come back to the classroom to help me organize materials for the next lesson, grade papers for me, correct spelling tests, make xerox copies of things, work on punching holes in lunch paper bags for our art project, etc.  Even better, those students who have a lot of unfinished classwork...they come in and they get their work done during the break.  It's great! For a class of 33, this was a breeze!!!

The one part of my day that really ticked me off though...
There is this student that I have. His name is Leon. Personally, I think he has a learning disability or something but just has not been evaluated and tested. Anyways, he doesn't do any work.  I have to really sit there and baby sit his ass for him to do anything. I thought that he was making a lot of progress.  But what it was... I had sat with him for so long and had to coax him into doing his work that when he finally finished one worksheet, I thought he'd finished 3 of the 5 for the week.  It was horrible. I felt horrible because I was unable to get him to do his work. Whatever. I cannot be his baby sitter and sit there with him, hold his hand...and MAKE him do his work. It just wouldn't work out that way. Blah!! At the end of the day, I was giving the class instructions as to what papers we leave at school inside our desks and which ones we take home. While giving the class instructions, Leon took one of his sheets of paper and wrote... "Teacher... KICK ME YOU OLD LADY!" I was so pissed.  I embarrassed him in front of the whole class, something I have never done before...but was truly upset and hurt...and then sent him to the principal. It was horrible. I was really disappointed.

My dad ended up in the ER yesterday morning at Glendale Memorial Hospital.  He was having upper respiratory problems, not able to breathe easily. His meds were doin' an odd number on him and he was not "stable". BAD BAD BAD !! From past experiences, I know that he did this to himself. I can't say that I am going to always be mad about it b/c lets' face it...he is a grown man and doesn't know how to take care of himself. This will surely happen again. I have to just accept it and know that in the case of things like this...there isn't much that I can do but to expect it to happen from time to time and know that I will just have to go with it. However, the one thing that I am rather upset by is that Walter and I were unable to attend my very first Lil Sis's activation in Alpha Phi Omega. I had planned on attending and everything. But, because of this...all my plans went to shit.

Today, Saturday, I have class from 12-4pm. This is going to suck.

A Minute Ago. . .

on November the 27th at approximately 230pm in glendale at the intersection @ brand & laurel, i was involved in a car accident. i am OK... walter came to my rescue and came to make sure that i was OK. he took me to the ER. he was not present at the time of the accident but he did come once i called and told him what had happened.

anyways, i was hit (not my fault) by a huge montero (2001 CA plate #3WSN005). stupid lady. and yeah, i remember her plate #. cuz i know that if i see her, i'mma avoid her ass. anyways though...she insists that i merged into the lane farthest left from me and closest to her while i was in the intersection. SORRY nope. i didn't do that. anyways, she was making a left turn and she just happened to turn INTO me. blah! she makes me mad. anyways she is spending a lot of time trying to get her "statement" together. i've already submitted mine. wtf. i'm so upset.

the good side to all of this, my family and i are going to buy a new ride. we're going to get another toyota camry but a new one. i think that my mom is even talking to my dad and i about getting a 2007 LE model with the nav system & blue tooth capabilities, etc. i'm happy. stoked in fact. anyways... the nice thing that is i thik we will end up getting a new ride.

the bad part, i think that the worth of my car according the to the Kelley Blue Book prices stinks! i have a 1994 toyota camry LE...it has approximately 177,000 miles on it. dang it. and i was just at the shop havin' the battery replaced...just before i got hit by the stupid montero lady. anyways...the value of the car (before the accident of course) is $2600-5000 at most. the damage to the car, more than $2000. FUCK!! that is more than 77-83% of the total value of my car's current worth. so, in other words...TOTALLED. that's the only way that we can foresee us getting a new car.

school is the same...hectic and crazy. i just finished my school work and CSULA finals. i think that i have managed to squeeze out some A's this quarter. i'm counting on 2 out of the 3 classes...getting A's in em. this one other one, maybe a B+ only because i ended up having a few more tardies than i had hoped for. shit happens though. what else can i say? hmm. . . .whatever. i won't complain. my GPA won't suffer any. =P

i'm teaching a lot these days. i'm happy about that but at the same time, it is hectic.

ok well i think that is about all for now. my thanksgiving was great and i'm looking forward to a nice christmas with my family. walter will be in washington for the christmas holiday but will return to me for the new year. yay. besides, he wouldn't miss that kinda feast. believe me! paid for and in a nice hotel...you know walter will not miss it. besides that though, kaelani and his family get to see and have him for the christmas holiday. new years shouldn't be too much to ask i'll miss the guy but i'm really glad that he will have a chance to see his baby girl. she's going to be 7 in march. how crazy is that.

i never really thought about it i guess but walter and i have been together for quite some time now. i do not feel real rushed to get married but some people have been asking me lately...why aren't you married yet?!?! i don't feel like it yet. i'm happily engaged and for me, for right now, it's what's workin' out best.

congrats to my girl KRISTEN!! she and her soon to be hubby (steve) just recently got engaged in November. I'm so excited for her and hope to become a part of her wedding. i know for sure i will be there but i hope to be an integral part of it as well.

ok well thats about it for now folks. it has been a while but i have to say...despite the accident and some really horrible days at MUSD schools, i am holdin' up aiight. honestly, i just need lots and lots of HUGS from friends.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS. MERRY CHRISTMAS. HAPPY NEW YEAR. HAPPY every HOLIDAY out there!